I do not want to bring you down
I can't help you while I myself drown
I've made some bad decisions
Days are darkening with rapid precision
Tired under so much pressure
Sky collapses crushing pleasure
Feel every text you send
Smile but in reply I pretend
Wherever I go not thinking of you
Ball of longing in my throat for what we knew
Friends reassure I'm better alone
Thought that was true, I still obsess over my phone
I want to call often because I really care
Then you'd see my weakness so I don't dare
Trying each day to keep a safe distance away
You make it hard with each word you say
All I want is to be yours forever
Until I find myself we can't be  together