I was born on January tenth 2002. That makes my Chinese zodiac horse. I don’t really know what that means but I don’t really know what a lot of things mean. Like why people believe in love at first sight. Like why my dad is an emotionless ******* but I love him forever. Like Why i still wanna **** myself even though I know it won’t solve anything. I don’t know a lot. But I do this. I know that yellow candy is always the best. I know that writing a poem isn’t easy. That my grandma hums to herself everyday when doing the dishes cause she can’t always sing. That my shadow follows me everywhere but only when something bright is ahead of me Because I’m always alone in the dark. But never alone in my head I know that somewhere somehow love is waiting for me to find it. And I know that somehow. I will.