Painted realize Real lies Contoured my jawline Choked out fragmented, underchewed bites of asinine rhymes Forcing my way back up mucked in stomach enzymes Didnt anyone ever tell you to take your time? Take smaller bites? Or like women with strong personalities you bit off more than you could chew? Drank far less tea than you once thought to brew Did your mother ever blame herself when you couldnt finish your plate, Or were you forced to sit there until its contents were scraped Like the walls of my brain? Digging my nails so deep into my hair i siphoned a drain Relinquishing my lungs from the broth of my distain Now that's where she really sealed my fate; Letting you up from your dinner place before you cleaned your nightly plate And so forth you learned what you wanted to take Was alright with the woman who slaved hours of her day away For the perfect texture, Temperature, Taste testing testamur SO WHY NOT ME? No man will ever know all the baby hairs ive tamed, Couches ive rearranged, Backs of earrings I've misplaced, Shaved my legs, Beat my face, Smeared a fragrance down the nape n pinned my curls back only to let them fall with the grace you couldn't show. Setting the dinner table, to which I was prone, Pouring tea for two until I realized I was drinking alone.