I won't call it a disease, I'll call it this This instead. Tired of sitting in meetings about meetings. Tired of swallowing pills stacking up bills. This is what I live with and "it must be so hard" but I'm strong. A strong woman searching to be weak. Using various techniques to dodge a flaming hot tear. Because I cannot bear watching myself crumble at the expensive of evil emotions. So I unconsciously chose This instead of emotion.