i confided my deepest thoughts to you, the thoughts i share to myself when it is no longer light the insecurities, they haunt me when i’m alone but you, you knew them too well i guess even milk can make you queasy if you realize you’re lactose intolerant maybe thats why im so devastated, i guess can we just let it be? can we just be strangers who pass each other in the hallways, ignore him instead you decide to sting me indirectly through the whispers in the wind that sends chills down my aching spine like a blind bee to a flower i guess no matter how you hurt me bees always crave honey right? i can never taste your honey too blind to see through your pretty face even though it’s right in front of me the honey is poison artificial maybe an emerald mask you wore when i was vulnerable when in all reality you were just charcoal not a diamond in the rough but merely something common you don’t deserve to be the one that got away i should be proud to say i got away just imagine the what ifs what if you stayed for him longer what if you dug the sand from your heart again and made him a sand castle what if what if what if forget that ******
this is a poem i wrote when i was sad, one of those nights i guess.