No matter how much has changed
One thing still remains the same
That all I know is pain
The physical
Felt like ive had spears driven through
My legs. Its like a plague that
Wont go away
The pain is so unbearable, I tell
My doctors and they don’t seem  
To care at all
My knees feel like they will buckle
With ease. My left feels so unstable
Im surprised im even able to walk
My right causes so much pain, it
Sometimes pauses me in my tracks
My wrists aren’t much better. Can
Barely lift a feather. Can’t swing
A bat, throw a punch, or lift weights
At that, without a shooting pain
In my radius. Feels like its gonna break
Again, and I truly am afraid of this.
My ankle is always sore, even
Though the bone isn’t dead anymore,
I fear itll collapse just walking in the store
The mental
I feel nothing but emptiness
My stomach and chest are nothing
But hollow pits. Wherever I go, I
Always feel like something is wrong
No matter who im with, always
Feels like I don’t belong.
Sometimes when I close my eyes,
I still see it, the spot where my
Body lies, and where I should have died.
The blood, the grass, the rocks, its
All so vivid. Since then ive lived
Life oh so timid. My struggles have
Exceeded its bearable limit. It
Brings a tear to my eye, but for
Some reason, I cant seem to cry