Fifty-percent illusion at any given time. Your unintended muse will plead 'not guilty' to the crime Of snatching back the quill and reshaping every line into the role she wished to play -- it seems the choice was never mine --
but the boy with the weighted wedding ring, the self-appointed jury of the south; him sheepish at the door with roses, and the brute who owns this house.
Was it feminine mystique or was I crystal clear while you blocked your ears and pretended not to hear?
A three-act structured tragedy. All archetypes assigned. "We've had this date since the beginning" -- if the part must be mine to play, it is in my hands to manipulate. Direct your blame to those who cast the roles.
Torn petticoat, blue piano; flattered by the dimming glow -- oh, to be glossy pink and gold! A trophy bride. A victor's prize. (I snap awake and still see his eyes -- that ego swells him thrice my size -- with bruising force, he parts my thighs.)
Was it hysteria - madness? - or was I crystal clear while you blocked your ears and pretended not to hear?
My fate was written for me, in the frontal lobes of those who came before me: down that narrative route, all bumps and troughs -- desire! Fragments of an old Rossetti poem... o, vanity of vanities... the streetcar rattles and groans.
self-indulgent b-side to the prior poem 'i, ophelia'; honing in on blanche dubois (a streetcar named desire). excuse the rhymes, it's been a while.