When the tears spring to my eyes like a salty mist this is where I go where I stay All my thoughts and feelings pour out into words bleeding and transforming that which is untouchable into something tangible For though I long to scream, to shout, to cry a small creature within holds me back and I don't know what it is What is this beast that slumbers inside? I find myself an anomaly I cannot understand and wonder if others think the same
They say I am harsh, cold, and mean and I know, I know what I am but something small and tender aching and afraid urges me to unleash my claws in a desperate attempt to defend my heart It is impossible to ignore, because it abides deep in my bones and when I was young and starry eyed I used to tell myself it was okay but its not it never was When life becomes hard, I do too and I am sorry, ever so sorry for those who unleash their own claws on me for they will find a whirlwind of steely fangs and ire bursting to the brim with ferocity
I am broken, splintered, ever so weathered from what life has thrown at me I see now that it isn't about surviving Its about living But how can I call this living when all the softness I used to see in this world is gone?
-Esther L. Krenzin- -Roguesong-
There is a monster within that hurts ever so much. There is a monster within that bares its teeth and bites.