There are words in a million languages That pass between our eyes alone They piece themselves together in my mind And rest on the tip of my tongue
Was it just the whiskey talking? Every word you said sounded like *** Was it just the liquor talking? Was I just a bit of fun?
Because I know better than to trust or lean I’m far too smart to count on you for anything I know not to bother with vulnerabilities So why did soft words from you instantly break me?
I don’t lean into arms in the dark of night And suddenly feel that I can breathe I don’t hold to anyone for any reason And momentarily feel my mind freeze
But it was quiet for a second, it was silent There were no hands on my neck, nothing violent It was bliss for a second, I was peaceful Like I’d gone to bed starved and woke up full
I’m needy at my most honest I need someone to hold me together I could fix myself if I wanted But I’m too tired to bother
I’m jealous at my most real I’ll wrap around you like gauze I’ll watch you be you with a smile While hoping the whole world ***** off
I’ll sit with you like this With the words you whisper down my neck I told you I’d never been honest before So please, don’t leave me a mess
This is one of two poems I’ll be posting before the year ends. Everything else I’ve written this year will be in a book I’ll publish closer to December. The information about that will be in the notes of the next poem for any one who’s interested. I’ll also write a lot more about the person(s) who have affected me so greatly over my time on this site.
Thank you for sticking with me for all these years.