It hides beneath her skin It lurks in her mind It shimmers underneath her smiles and happy times You can't always see it But it never, ever leaves
The turbulent thoughts that swirl in a slipstream They never really disperse It may seem as though the world is at peace But to her, it's falling apart at the seams.
How couldn't you see it? Why didn't you try? You only saw what you wanted in her You never noticed the tears she cried Only if it suited you Did you hold her close I hope the thought of it makes you choke.
It was always in the bathrooms at 3 am when everyone else was asleep When there was no one else in her entire world When she was so far beyond help, so far gone She ached over you and it didn't matter Not in the end For you, she had her last breath.
Do you see it now? All of the times where she laughed too hard Where she smiled too wide Everything was a lie How couldn't you see it?
I bet that it's so clear Now that she's no longer here I bet you're disgusted with yourself I hope you choke on the guilt Because you see it now, don't you? How the pain was eating her from the inside How her smiles never reached the deadness in her eyes
Now you see it When she's gone You only know how much you cared After it's been ripped from you, too.
Now you see it The way she loved you so hard How her eyes always seemed to find you in a crowded room The smiles and laughter that was only for you I hope you choke on the flower petals that she coughed for you Because, in the end, all of her pain and suffering? Don't you see? It was all for you.
To a ******* who doesn't know what he's doing is killing me slowly