The school halls where plagued
I could feel there eyes
Pointed stares
I could feel it all before it happened
Pushed to the ground
Beaten to blood
Threatened
Cut down to size
Under attack
Try to shield my face
But I'm to weak
I must deserve this
I must have done something wrong
A busted lip
But no one asks
No one helps
Class is done
School bell rung
Now the bus ride home
Dreaded because I know they'll be there
I get on early
To sit in the front
Maybe then they won't get me
But there words hit me
Just as hard
Ugly
Fat
****
Dumb
*****
I break and I break
But today I reached the last shard
Home alone I cry
Sobbing
I was dead before I did it
I was already gone
I had been for months
I just hadn't left yet
I wrote the note my mom
To my brother
To my friends
It wasn't there fault
I wrote one to the bullies
I apologized for whatever I did
To make them hate me
I apologized and told them that I would just
Make their life better
Once I finished I went to the bathroom
Looked in the mirror
My eyes were sad
I pushed up my sleeves and revealed the scars
They were there like a tattoo to remind me
That I'm nothing
That I'm better off gone
I open the cabinet
I select the pills randomly
God won't have room in heaven for me
Not if they didn't have room for me here
I take them all
I cry
I swallow them
With a thick throat
I'm scared but I don't stop
I can't remember who I used to be
Who my friends used to be
They wanted me dead
They needed me gone to
They just couldn't say it
I felt the numbness sweep over me
And slowly I'm dust in the wind
Leaves falling from a deciduous tree
I'm dying
No more crying
Maybe peace