Rejected
Heartbroken
Trapped six feet under
Gasping for air
Drowning
Head ready to explode
Things are amazing
Then it's to much
Kept at arms length
Wanting more and wanting to grow
This relationship but feelings aren't shared
Wanting/needing to see
But not good enough to be seen
Asked to not be yourself  
Why should I ever try to be then?
Left to ask myself questions and try to hold it together
While others go unbothered
Chances never given
To prove that I could be
something more
Based off some preconceived notion about my personality
Why be so open when it only causes so much pain?
Why try to help people when it all comes back on me?
Do you even have a right to be upset?
Is forgiveness even deserved for the way I acted?
I feel there's more to it
Something not being said or kept hidden away
Always going to be that friend
No matter who I grow attached to
Not worthy of having a best friend
Not worthy of being happy
Once again she gets everything
Time, attention, visits, fun
I'm left with nothing
Except the pieces of a shattered psyche and broken heart