Valentines Day, is the last Time I wrote And that I’ve been honest. That’s to say I haven’t written in a long time Months, infact. Don’t get me wrong I’ve screamed I’ve yelled I’ve given the finger But I haven’t truly been honest Just let everything ooze out as it will Close my eyes Rest my fingers on a keyboard And write.
That’s a problem Because one day I'll stop writing. And those emotions will seep Into my real life.
**** it all This takes up my time And I hate it. I hate having to sit down and write this **** out. It’s much easier to scream at people As they walk by They walk away faster And I get to release a little bit of anger But this is where I can form my thoughts I can grasp at straws to try to explain myself
*******- By the way, those are my thoughts *******- That’s what I think of all the people reading this You don’t get it I don’t know what you’re going through myself But you **** sure should not comfort me and say I understand what you’re feeling You don’t Because when I express myself You claim I'm the bad guy.
As I ramble on, I start to allow myself release It’s like when you don’t ******* for a month straight Funny thing about that is most guys can’t pull it off And most girls probably don’t understand the release I’m talking about Either sexually or emotionally You cry to ******* often
Funny to think these words mean **** No one of importance is going to see them And if she did for some reason She don’t have a clue what I’m actually saying And if she does… this is for her specifically *******
Meanwhile I’m supposed to stay in line Be the "better man" And if I try to break out I’m told "you're better than this" "what about your reputation"
People sob over suicides People cry over death "they're mentally ill" You put them in a ******* hospital for crazy people It’s okay to call them crazy Most of the time they don’t mind Because you had the ******* ***** To say something honest to them Instead of acting as though they’re the same as you They are ******* different And that’s what makes them a person you *******
So go ahead, don't ******* me. It has nothing to do with fear Don't pretend I should be the better man, or that I'm just Asking for attention and help. Just ******* say I'm crazy
The tortured artists all come to the same conclusion That nothing they can do matters Death leads either to heaven, hell, or nothing If nothing, then there is nothing left to bear Hell can’t be worse than this The devil will at least tell you why you’re there Imagine that? ******* closure.
If you read through all this I wasted your time But I’m not sorry You want the meaning of life? Go **** yourself Fastest way to find out **** it, watch me do it.