We've been having such a good time out here lately chasing chasing chasing this summer to the end of its life, and it's about time we took half a handful of something decent to calm our nerves, breathe slow in and out just like we practiced when the stars hid their faces and we decided the nights were getting short and we'd better hide ours, too.
and I know our brains will always be a little bit hardwired for self destruction, but before you go digging around again in old scraps searching for new ways to place blame, new ways to fit our shoulders with damage & **** counts, take this down off the shelf take a deep breath and hand me the blueprints.
Sometimes I trip over my tongue when I speak, sometimes I forget and just mumble instead, and sometimes I tear out stiches too early sometimes I don't get what I want and I blame myself hate myself for thinking that we all have to come to terms with our own versions of crash-and-burn fairytales, but isn't that the truth of it all? If this brutal reality doesn't shake us and stir the dust from our bones, nothing will; no morning or afterlife can save us until we stop sharpening our teeth and put down our steel blades nothing is made forever, but forever is made up of a lot of nothings, the way we stir the *** on our bad (or good) days is only one of them; the way we tell ourselves we aren't important is a lie don't whisper this into my ears at dusk, scream it into the sky scream it into the palms of your hands until you can't breathe anymore, it has never been better, it has never been worse work your desires into your DNA coding detonate what's left in your system (start over again)
I'm finding new ways to stand still on this high balancing beam new rituals and new ways to throw my hat off to you, give credit where credit is due I only hope that when it's said and done and I'm on my way out I'll know half of what I do right now, feel it surging in my headrush & in the burn of my fingers I hope I'll know on my way out the door:
Nothing has ever been better and nothing has ever been worse.