Birds singing to one another,
wind gushing through the wilderness,
sun shining upon us
and life getting miserable each day.
Through all the beauty life has encountered,
we yet, have still closed our minds and hearts
to the ones we love, the ones we hate
and mostly, to the world; making life horrible.
We are one being, with millions of emotions
Ever been through times, when nothing seems right?
Times when you feel like your mind and heart
has just been shattered in pieces,
wondering what the reason might be.
I have, for quite sometime
and still have I not yet figured out
the reason as to why
I'm stuck in this other world
constantly abusing myself in ways that don't
make any sense.
My mind is one of its own nature
it drifts off and imagines many
messed up **** through love,
freedom, lost, death and heartbreaks.
Possibly this whole reason is to
erase that from my mind,
doing something I gained to enjoy
and facing with the consequences.
Maybe its the thought of liking someone
yet, too scared to believe in it;
or maybe it's all the pressure
I put onto myself
and realizing that my presence
won't be useful to
learn, grow, adapt and love.
I hate bottling everything in me,
I hate feeling every emotion at once,
I hate how I have so many incredible
people in my life,
I hate these struggles,
these certain random heart pains I
have to adjust.
I've learned that my life has
two worlds, two 'types' of people
and one body.