I never asked you for anything. But you use to give it all to me.
I did use to have expectations. However, those quickly faded with age. As I realized most of my "friends" had no idea how to be one.
Actually, I never realized this. I just started to believe that this is what friendship is. Distance, Bailed plans, Missed phone calls, A Text once a week, asking me how I'm doing.
For over a year now this has been the game between all of my friends. And so, I actually forgot what having a real friend meant. I forgot, that I was allowed to have expectations for people I care about, And CLAIM to care about me. I forgot, my feelings mattered. I forgot, I was allowed to care. I stopped asking you for anything at all because I knew it would end up in disappointment.
And I was right...
I realize now, After making some new genuine friends. How valid my feelings of resentment and hurt actually are.
Real friends are there for you. Not once a week through a text. Real friends follow through on plans. They make compromises. They make an effort. Real friends will wipe away your tears.
Friendship is about give and take. All you did was take. And now for you, I have nothing left to give. The parts of me left to give have been given to my new friends. My true friends.
I never asked you for anything.
You were just suppose to be there...
But you're gone.
And I don't know which one of us loses. Maybe it's both of us.
But, Either way, I expect nothing from you anymore.