I suffer from a self-inflicted affliction, Indeed, the guilt of my benefaction By the decree of my skin tone at birth, At the expense of the bodies and souls of my darker brothers and sisters, Gnaws at the rough edges of my soul.
I feel shame when I consider The ease with which I move through the circles of society, While others pause at every edge, Eye their surroundings, Look for exit points, Gauge their safety.
And I double down on my guilt, Knowing that it is more coping mechanism Than it is agent of change. “As bad as things are, At least I feel bad that they’re bad,” I reason.
As if that makes things better.
As if that’s oxygen in the black man’s lungs.
As if it helps him breathe.
Still, I do what I can.
I confront racism where I see it, Voice my opposition to the systemic injustices from which I benefit.
I have made enemies, Perhaps even of myself, A price I’d gladly pay Ten thousand times over, for 400 years and more.