The slow breathing, Before the fast; Until my body is shocked with the sudden reaction. My mind that takes over my heart, Will never learn to be controlled. I will never know what it feels like to be relaxed. Just to be unworried, Fearless, Brave, & to trust. & through the darkness, The light appears dead in silence. Only the sound of fear, Plays in my head. Only the sound of my breath, When I try to gasp for air. My mind pushes strong; There is no limit. My heart is pushed so far; It works so hard. & then the air within my body, Cannot be controlled. My breathing, So hard. So heavy. So fast. & Im at the point where I cannot breathe. It feels so harsh, So painful. My body weakens. My body is dizzy. My fingers & toes are so numb as I shake. It just feel like there is an earthquake. Im unable to walk. These attacks are controlling me. & with the dehydration my body goes through, The water that is finally taken into me, Drowns me when I need the moisture. Its so hard to think with confusion. Its so hard to focus with distraction. Its so hard to try and catch my breath, When hyperventilation takes over.