i wrote so many times
to put my feelings down on the line
to rewire my thoughts
and provide some calmness to the mess

but i still feel alone
like the only one in this world
i know that’s not possible
yet the feeling is so strong

along these lines i realised
i truly am alone
others are just influences
but the decisions are all mine

i have not figured it out yet
but someday i will understand
that being alone is not so bad
it means that i am contented,

with myself.