On one hand, I can see my goals clearly, vividly & at the same time I have a concrete plan in mind I will execute upon.

Everything is crystal clear & beautiful.

On the other hand:
     1) All of this is *******
     2) The Government is WATCHING US
     3) People don't WANT YOU TO WIN
     4) "WHY SHOULD I BE SUCCESSFUL? DO I EVEN DESERVE
           IT?"

I wonder.