I can't breathe,
I can't calm down,
I feel tears running down my cheek like a waterfall.
I tell myself 1...2...3...4...5...6...7...9...10, In... Out.
I tell myself to be brave because you need to smile.
A smile can hide everything.
My skin is red and my eyes are a different color.
Luckily they haven't noticed.
I quickly walk to my room and cry for 2 minutes and go out with the biggest smile anyone has seen.
Sometimes I can not go out, sometimes I stay in my room and just stare at my empty wall emotion-less.
My heart is beating so fast I am afraid I am going to have a heart attack.
I call my dog in and I hug her like there is no tomorrow.
I know she will always be there for me.