No one knows how I feel about you,
no one knows the pain I feel every second.
No one knows me and sometimes I want to just tell them but because of you I have trust issues.
I hide behind a mask every single day and I am getting tired of hiding.
No one knows the dreams I have had about you. No one knows that I see you **** my family in my dreams almost every single night. I know you are not a murderer but my fear has taken over after you knocked on our door after 5 years of nothing.
You broke my heart before any boy had the chance to.
Within these 5 years of pain I began to lose pieces of my heart everyday. Now I just have enough left to keep me alive. To keep me from stopping my life.
I watch my friends with their father and I am happy for them but I can't help but wish I had one too.
So, I go to my guy friend and he shows me that a man could be trust worthy.  
I remember when you said you would beat up every guy who hurt me but I don't think you would hurt yourself.
Sure other guys have broken my heart but what if my superhero is my villain.