It terrifies me to the bone
We go through all this **** and for what?
To end up buried under ground and forgotten
We go through the aging process to get slow motivated and broken minded
We get a job that is the same exact **** every time
And for what?
To be miserable and misunderstood.
School and education is what everyone honestly wants
Who wants to be dumb?
Not me but I am
I am lazy and I hate it
I want to be smart but it's like I have a problem with learning
I just can't remember stuff
I want to go to school but where the hell am I going to get the money?
How the hell am I going to afford an education
With the way I learn I'd probably just fail and waste all the money just like I'm wasting all my time doing nothing
I wasted my whole high school career
I took the easy road and still got bad grades
What the hell is wrong with me
Life is suppose to be fun and exciting
Right?
Well how come I can't be happy?
Where's my happiness?
Where's my motivation?
Where's my confidence?
Why can't I embrace life and tackle it?
Why can't I be strong and be alive?
I dont know where to start
I don't kno how to get out of my head
I'm miserable
That's just how I am
How am I suppose to change?
I want to change so bad
I don't want to be scared
I don't want time to go fast
I don't wanna do the same **** everyday
I want excitement and happiness
But I'm afraid it's lost
All I can feel is hurt
And it's all my fault