one more for Joni and the one who accuses me of "owning the courage to care so blatantly."
<:> accused of writing with blatant courage, a 4 credit requirement for caring
blatant is a word of merger - open obvious unsubtle and unashamed
and a dissembling misleading one!
it is all of these and yet can be a contradictory mask of opposing, differing faces
my blatant is none of these but appearance only
**** muses keep me coming back to a particular lyric, keeps seeking me out, so successfully, wherever I go, I hear it it’s invading my both sides now
the dizzy dancing way you feel
you think I have my own blatant courage, untrue! so oft you mistook my dizzy dancing, all fluff all humbug so obvious so ashamed, a cover up, a most subtle cosmetic pretense of the truth - of no courage at all and yet (they mock) you do care...
just another of my peculiar life’s illusions (self-delusions)