Do you ever just want it to stop?
The suffering,
The pain,
The numbness.
I do.
I want it all to end.

Sometimes I can't tell if my heart is filled with so much love or so much pain and I hate that.

I've tried you know, to die.
Many times,
Trust me it is not worth it.
I know that I don't want to die.
I just want all of the suffering to stop.
The pain,
The emptiness I feel in my chest.
But I don't know how to make it go away.
And I fear it never will.