"I hate you now as much as I will ever hate you." Our fingers laced with strained prose and my blooming heart. There's only so many ways to tell you this without us both realizing we might have not yet learned our lesson.
The truth is, there's no way for me to know how much this really hurts. I've cast myself numb to the touches of future lovers and to be honest I've said too many times that I would cast this out of my mind but, baby, if you loved me, would you leave me? Could we bury this romance in a candlelight processional and a chorus of holy reverence, how long could we hold each other till our arms crumbled to dust under the six feet of people we once were? Would our kisses turn to ash so close to new flames we might light?... could either of us stand the flames? We'll be okay, I know in time this too shall fade but once, I had high hopes. Once I was left confused crying to a plane window and you couldn't tell me anything to ease the chaos in my mind. Why would you offer yourself to me like that if you didn't want me too? I'm so stressed, pressing on for answers but, maybe there's nothing to find. I'll move forward. One day.