I used to feel guilty for leaving you in such an ugly way

But then I remembered the ugly way that you treated me  

And the remorse faded like chalk drawings in a thunderstorm

The day after I left you I stayed in the shower for hours  

Just trying to feel clean

I scrubbed my skin red and raw and still

I felt your fingerprints burning  

There was nothing beautiful about you and I

Nothing precious or sacred

Such a filthy stain

Such an ugly shade of red