You tell me “It’s just a bad day” If it’s just a bad day then why did I cry myself to sleep yesterday? And the day before why did I find myself on the bathroom floor holding a blade to my wrist? Was that “just a bad day” too? And this weekend when I saved the suicide hotline number in my phone just to be safe Was I just having another bad day? And when I couldn’t sit through class because my throat closed in due to yet another panic attack And when I was called to the office because someone noticed my scars Maybe I was just having a bad day. And maybe this is normal, because it’s just a bad day And maybe there's actually nothing wrong with me because everyone has their ups and downs So maybe when I stay up late and consider whether I should use a rope or a knife Maybe it’s just a bad night? And when this continues day after day week after week and month after month Maybe it's just a bad life? Please don’t tell me “its just a bad day” Because bad days are for normal people with normal lives Because actually it’s just a bad brain Don’t tell me It will be okay and get better eventually Because my serotonin levels are not going to go up overnight.