I was diagnosed with a Major Depressive Disorder. Funny.. Who could of known I've always felt empty and alone. Many sleepless nights Filled with nightmares and fright Nothing I do makes me happy anymore I feel it sometimes, when I spend some time outside But then its like a dark shadow, reaching above me.. Ready to tower over and hurt me. My heart races throughout the day Wishing that I didn't have to stay So I can lay in bed and think And let my thoughts sink Mother calls me lazy If not often crazy My mood changes from left and right Maybe she is right. Who knows how long this will go I don't know? I feel cold and alone Weak at my bones Doesn't make sense, I don't make sense Writing this just made me upset I don't know if this whole poem makes sense I mean .. what is there to expect? Everything is just a mess. What did I miss? . . What even is this.
Just thought to type this out to feel better. Sorry if it doesn't make sense.