I didn't choose it I didn't wake up one day and tell myself let's be anxious let's be depressed let's want to die let's start self harming I didn't choose to be like this
slowly my problems my monsters became visible they started small skipping lunch making a cut or two on my hand shaking for a while in school but I fell
I didn't choose to be this person. We just get handed who we are. I didn't choose this. I never wanted to be that
I didn't want to be riddled with anxiety and insecurities, to wallow in self-pity and sleep for hours everyday to stay up all night with anxiety to steal razors to eat one-hundred calories and then barf it back up but that's what happened.
I didn't choose this I didn't choose I didn't choose to tear apart my life. it just happened
I'm really good right now but in a reflective state currently oof