I just want these voices to stop. I dont want to never be good enough I don't want to starve I dont want to carve "FAT" on my thigh I dont want to exercise. I just want to be normal. I would rather stay fat rather than unhappy, But these voices make it hard for me to do that. Sometimes I want to scream for help, I want my friends to know that I am drowning But it's so hard to find the courage to tell the truth. These voices tell me That they will think I'm not sick enough That im not worth the effort That I'm not enough for them to care So instead, I give out subtle hints, "I'm really sore" I spent all night exercising "I slept for 12 hours" I wanted to avoid food last night so I slept and slept a lot due to the fact that I stayed up til 2 am doing squats all week "Im hungry" I've been fasting for 18 hours No one could possibly understand unless they ask And if they asked, they cared. So why tell them if they wouldn't care enough?