It's the way I drink my coffee now. Not watered down, with cream and sugar, but cut back, raw, and strong. I don't think it's wrong to deny myself of this sweetness, It only weighs me down anyway. I'm used to it like this now, anyway.
It's the way drinking translates a moment to a dream state. Every interaction flows then fades, like grade school memories. Existing outside the realm of reality.
It pulls away, like it doesn't belong to me. Like it needs room to breathe. It sleeps, and sleep talks, and sleep walks, then it wakes me up and doesn't rest for days.
It sits, and waits, until it's earned its place again. It learns patience, from a lot of practice, stretching itself thin.
It is stubborn, and broken, but it knows it. And persists anyway. This is not resilience It is the weeds in my garden, but it is beautiful anyway. It only knows exisiting like this now, anyway.