I hate that I sometimes come across as narcissistic
i hate that decided to pursue art rather than just get a normal job and live an inconspicuous existence with an understanding partner and a simple home.
i hate that i'm lying here at 4:55 feeling sick.
I hate that's it's raining.
I hate that I don't like a great majority of my work or at least come to resent it later.
I hate the fact that nothing satisfies me - even when I try and put in a great amount of effort.
I have a better physique than 90% of people and quit using drugs and alcohol and cigarettes and still feel like garbage.
I hate that I don't trust
and generally assume the worst in humanity and this life in general.
I hate that I see much more beauty in ugliness.
I'm ready to return to nonexistence.
or If i'm apart of you , and we're all one 'beautiful spiritual essence---