i'm in need of some love, heart's in disrepair. beyond tired of hearing people say they'll always be there. even when my tears are trailing mascara down my face they still turn away, leaving nothing but a trace of who they used to be, yet another ghost of my past. when they choose moments to comfort me the moment i needed it was already gone fast. how dare they take everything when they give nothing, empty promises, half truths always forgetting lines--they're bluffing. i have so much love to give, to receive how dare they take everything, all i gave them, and leave? how dare they leave me behind; i was the flashlight during their darkest moment, the unconditional love and guidance i gave-- my utmost bestowment. i shouldn't be surprised, i was simply a warm home when they were hungry and cold well now i'm watching the story of my betrayal unfold. i'm in need of some love, heart's in disrepair. don't tell me you're gonna stay if you won't actually "always be there."
this is sloppy & choppy but it's the product of getting words out before they consume you.