Oct 2012
Dear Me..... First let me say that i love you. That's real talk. I have nothing to gain....after all we share the same names. I've been with you throughout the years.
I vividly remember all those tears.
The abuse and yelling and screaming and running away. I have bad memories.... like your father dropping you over the bannister causing you to visit the hospital that day. He was cracking jokes....while we had a hole in our head.....I recall... not so fondly the words he said "don't tell your mother....don't say a word." He had a nerve to repeat it as if I hadn't heard.
Yes...he said it was your fault...but i new better. I wanted to give you some closure....so I'm writing you this letter. I hear you tell the stories every now and then.....you tell it with a smile although there is pain that still resides within.
How many times did we wander the street? ...searching and begging for change .....just to get something to eat. The one that was supposed to love you.....really didn't know how ......his father died when he was fourteen.
How could he care for you and he was only nineteen? Then he started to hustle and bought a store......got high off his own supply .....firebombed his house.....because when the kids were younger ......he would make them cry.
I remember him saying that you wouldn't amount to much and smacking you in front of his friends for GP.......it wasn't just you.... he did it to me.
But enough of that.....Look in the mirror and see the man I see. Can you see those eyes? Hey ....that's me. You have have come a long way.......abuse,cheating spouse who had a child by another.....where's Rihanna? I could use an umbrella, ellla,ellla,aye.
The divorce took a toll on us.....I'm glad you went to church. In God we trust. Thank you for writing and saving us....you held so much in I'm surprised you didn't bust.
You have been through a lot in this life and I just want to tell you.....You are more than a conqueror and you will win. I'm going to be by your side until the end.
I love you like I love my Son......now I want to shine like one. I'm proud of you. I want your faith to increase....greater is he that is in me..than that is in the world.
Sincerely yours......Jesus and me
I vividly remember all those tears.
The abuse and yelling and screaming and running away. I have bad memories.... like your father dropping you over the bannister causing you to visit the hospital that day. He was cracking jokes....while we had a hole in our head.....I recall... not so fondly the words he said "don't tell your mother....don't say a word." He had a nerve to repeat it as if I hadn't heard.
Yes...he said it was your fault...but i new better. I wanted to give you some closure....so I'm writing you this letter. I hear you tell the stories every now and then.....you tell it with a smile although there is pain that still resides within.
How many times did we wander the street? ...searching and begging for change .....just to get something to eat. The one that was supposed to love you.....really didn't know how ......his father died when he was fourteen.
How could he care for you and he was only nineteen? Then he started to hustle and bought a store......got high off his own supply .....firebombed his house.....because when the kids were younger ......he would make them cry.
I remember him saying that you wouldn't amount to much and smacking you in front of his friends for GP.......it wasn't just you.... he did it to me.
But enough of that.....Look in the mirror and see the man I see. Can you see those eyes? Hey ....that's me. You have have come a long way.......abuse,cheating spouse who had a child by another.....where's Rihanna? I could use an umbrella, ellla,ellla,aye.
The divorce took a toll on us.....I'm glad you went to church. In God we trust. Thank you for writing and saving us....you held so much in I'm surprised you didn't bust.
You have been through a lot in this life and I just want to tell you.....You are more than a conqueror and you will win. I'm going to be by your side until the end.
I love you like I love my Son......now I want to shine like one. I'm proud of you. I want your faith to increase....greater is he that is in me..than that is in the world.
Sincerely yours......Jesus and me
