a dream would be an understatement.
i remember so clearly how his eyes stared into mine as if they were connected to one another by a link.
i wanted more than the physical aspect of it.
i took advantage of the moment we had in silence, just us, no one else, no distractions, no issues.
he kissed me and my mind ran into a million different directions.
there is no doubt that i enjoyed every second of it, but i wanted more than just that.
i imagine that our lips felt the way two clouds do when they merge into one.
when i pulled away, i put my arms around him and i held onto him like a child holds onto a blanket they cannot sleep without. i clung to him as if i needed him the way a flower needs sunlight,
only he was not sunlight.
he was an eclipse in my mind. he occupied it and he controlled it with no notice, he destructed me with no intention to do so, but  behind that darkness, there was a beautiful light,
a light that would be responsible for my smiles and joy and sleepless nights,
a light that gave me positivity and a sense of being important.
in that very moment, with my hands around his torso, and his arms around my smaller body, my only wish was to stop time.
to be in that moment infinitely, to hear his heart beat only, and to feel our bodies press against one another, to have him all to myself in that moment, for it to be only our minds and bodies,
that is the moment i want to live in forever.