i have no idea why i continue to torture myself with the thoughts of you touching someone else. i think about it over and over and over and o v e r again i donβt know why i choose to think of the best parts of you, the best parts of us, when you asked where the knife was and i told you the kitchen. (not thinking youβd use it on me)
i feel like iβm losing grip of things. of myself. and over and over i choose to think of these things that hurt me most.