The timer started long ago
counting every day—every night
cycling between
time he lives in fake bliss
time i live in real depression
resets at four
hard to track
and when they look
the clock ices over
and cracks

and my heart breaks
as they come to hate me
see me as egocentric
narcissistic
complaining
as i fracture
inept in interactions
pathetic at reassuring

Well
it's four
time to take my medicine
time to hide
until i
no
longer
can

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