People say it’s ok to feel sad, but what do you do when it never stops? It always lingering never letting go of it’s hold on ur heart and soul. They say you can be happy if you choose to but I have limited options only consisting of fear and sadness. Everyone says patience is eyes but I guess time isn’t on my side. It’s been years and I still have not accepted myself, it’s Ben months since I had a real smile on my face, it’s been days since I had those horrific thoughts in my head. I don’t even know what I am waiting for anymore, they say you will know when you see it but I guess I need better glasses because I have been deceived so many times you could call me blind. So please tell me when it will get better I don’t know how much longer I can wait.