But
when you finally remember
what it is
you were trying to
forget,
you'd forgotten that you
didn't want to remember
it in the first place!
so,
you push it out
of your mind
until it's stuck right
in front of your face
for the rest of your time
here on this earth.

You didn't want to waste,
until you realized
that you,
started wrong
and now you just want
to end it fast, in the hopes
of a next life of realization

or is it just memorization

of the rules to live by