Most nights, I cant wait to fall asleep.... Every morning its so hard to get up.  The sun shines through the window , as I smell the coffee being made..
The smell of that cigarette being lit, ..
I know I'm alive ..
But I still feel so dead.
When the sun shines through the window, I smile all the time ..
Its beautiful to me .. And when it hits my eyes, they look so much brighter and prettier ....
I roll over and yarn .. I streach and try to make my way out the bed. .
Instead, I rest.
The coffee is very soothing.. & even though I know deep down inside I'm lost and broken ...
That sun shining through the window , leaves me open.