breathing is a regular body function still, it seems like it was the hardest thing for me to do my whole life i always felt like i was being swept up roughly by an ocean wave i would grapple with the demons that lived in the deepest parts of my mind just for one, just one breath it was so difficult to fight all of the time so hard to convince myself that it would all pay off in the end that in due time, breathing would become easier
then i met you, and it felt like everything in the world changed those long nights i spent alone gasping for air hour, after hour ceased to exist the demons in the deepest part of my brain dissipated and nothing was difficult i stopped thinking negatively and i felt that for the first time in a long time, that i had hope
and instead of staying up, restless at night i would lay my head down peacefully on my pillow no more harmful thoughts i didn't feel a pressing weight on my shoulders anymore and for the first time in my life, my lungs weren't burning in their longing for air air was filling them graciously and wholesomely and thus i began to fall in love with you
we became inseparable and the whole world seemed to know it because we were in love, and everyone wished they had what we did right?
in time we would realize that we weren't in love not even close you stopped caring and so did I and just as quickly as we fell in love we fell out of it and as quickly as you seemed to heal my lungs you damaged them again
now i try to breathe and it doesn't seem to work my lungs are burning, desperate for air but thats ok, because they say time heals all and maybe instead of someone else healing me i just need time and i can heal myself and breathing wont be so difficult and the demons will permanently disappear for now, ill just learn to forget you