Jan 2018
i am not the kind of sick
that leaves the body flushed
at 104 degrees
in the middle of the winter.
i am not the kind of sick
that causes every breath
to force
its way
back up
your throat
while dragging razor blades
along the inside of your neck.
i am not even the kind of sick
that comes with a vaccination
or an antibiotic
that will chase it away.
no.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves you locked in
the bathroom during class
because you can't seem to stop the
flow of tears
running
down
your face.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves your hands
sweating
and your voice
shaking
when it's your turn to order dinner
at the diner you've been to
a thousand times.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves you feeling
l o n e l y
in a crowded room
filled with the people you've
known your whole life.
i am the kind of sick that nobody sees
because it's all in my head
and cannot be cured.
that leaves the body flushed
at 104 degrees
in the middle of the winter.
i am not the kind of sick
that causes every breath
to force
its way
back up
your throat
while dragging razor blades
along the inside of your neck.
i am not even the kind of sick
that comes with a vaccination
or an antibiotic
that will chase it away.
no.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves you locked in
the bathroom during class
because you can't seem to stop the
flow of tears
running
down
your face.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves your hands
sweating
and your voice
shaking
when it's your turn to order dinner
at the diner you've been to
a thousand times.
i am the kind of sick
that leaves you feeling
l o n e l y
in a crowded room
filled with the people you've
known your whole life.
i am the kind of sick that nobody sees
because it's all in my head
and cannot be cured.
mental health is just as important as physical health. take care of yourself.
