I lay awake
Wishing
Hoping
Maybe I'll find the answers.
Maybe I can come to a conclusion,
Sort out the feelings,
Know what to do.
I lay wide awake
Hours past when I should have fallen
Fallen into a deep peaceful sleep
The kind you do after a bedtime story.
Instead I lie here thinking
This isn't right
None of this feels right
I've lost myself
When will I return?
How can I choose?
Will I even get to?
I feel lost.
I feel like I'm losing you.
I will be left standing
Waiting and wishing
I never walked away
You ran back inside
I ran into your arms
I never left the soft, safe blankets
I know as your arms.
Wishing and hoping I will know
This will work out
We will be in love forever.
Or you will move on--
Hate me even--
Because I know I will be here forever
Waiting, wishing
Lying awake too late into the morning
Waiting for you.