More than twenty years ago... Your parents who foolishly believed after several months of false courtship of skirting the law in a way that could make anyone's jaw drop down to the worst possible city to live their lives in unholy matrimony. The greatest mistake two people in hate could make is to have someone be born from their hatred and take everything they've ever felt. Slowly, through their mistakes, you would rack up so many defects, which then cause the effects to never be visible. Every bad trait was inherited. Every flaw absorbed. Every error they ever made in their lives recalculated and saved to be avoided in the worst possible way. People hated you for you, and people hated them for getting in the way. People hated them for you, and people hated you for not getting in their way. People stopped hating you eventually, so you hated them instead. And right at the very last second when you felt you could be loved when you felt the world could actually embrace someone as broken, and desolate, and worthless as you someone who has failed so many times someone who has thrown away so many opportunities someone who has balked and hid in cowardice someone who has fought and defended themselves in inopportune times someone who truly felt, thought, believed, and expressed nothing you ******* it up. At least, you think you did. The truth is others did it for you. But you know deep down it was you.
Every facet of you is one unending mistake, and the only reason you still stand is because even God looked upon you and said, "Well, if he can't serve as an example, he'd be better put to use as a warning unto others."