I'm tired
Of caring about others
Neglecting myself
Until I am almost nonexistent
And then trying to find myself

I'm tired
Of getting hurt
Giving myself away
Until I am almost nonexistent
And then having to pick up all the pieces

I'm tired
Of being lost
Looking for all the answers
Until I am overwhelmed
And then I have to wait until someone else finds me, but they never do

I'm tired
Of not being allowed to cry
Trying to express myself through other means
Until I have been drained of all feelings
And then I close myself in because I am afraid of pulling people in with me

I'm tired
Of being afraid