it's really not worth the circus of a woman,
to agitate all those acrobats into saltos...
i felt it was worth shaving my beard
wanting to scratch my face,
turn my cheeks into
but you know
what scared me?
not that i immediately reacted
to my immortal
by evanescence with tears -
but listening to the song -
it helped to agitate the "placebo"
i just call it a delayed response
since the tarantula bite was too strong;
and that i never did have a
no, i just walked past a house,
down the street i most dreaded,
i once passed the house
with someone in a car
and the person beside me said:
**** me, i'm turning into
a tim burton caricature...
and yes, the house looks scary,
its overgrown in shrubs...
but i'm crying! i'm crying...
i walked past the same house today
having fasted the entire day,
and ending the day by eating
a hoisin duck wrap having
the testament: you could feed
me that crap all year round,
and i'd still tell you that i ate
something different each day...
that haunted house though?
that overgrown, depilated ironically
i suddenly felt a fear i've
never felt before,
i felt it once passing the house,
but not to the point in tears,
i can only respect the lingering adam
"lost" in the garden...
there was actually
a light burning inside this house tonight...
this house of biblical service...
**** fearing the devil!
your comical phobia
are the same goats, bulls i'd slaughter...
do you know fear?!
do you know fear?!
ever walk past a supposedly abandoned
having that eerie feeling of
someone watching you one day,
being assured by the facade of
to later find a light shining inside
the same house?
i ******* to horror movies...
this **** is just tear jerking,
i'm stressing diapers...
people worry about c.c.t.v.,
i'm worried that i suddenly decided to walk
past this house,
spectating a light in its deathly
harrowing of absence of all else present:
namely the son shadow
being present inside...
****** please, give me any horror movie
and i'll triple the hard-on with orff's
o fortuna to boot...
there is nothing scarier than seeing
a house that is all too clearly abandoned,
shrouded in weeds and the doubling
effect of a graveyard...
to, some day,
during the night,
passing the same house,
seeing a light on in the house...
******, give me a ghost, a poltergeist,
a hell-bent goat...
what i just witnessed is far from
comic, and its also transcendental horror...
at least looking at a grave you can
find solace in the notion of the person
when i twice, thrice, four times dead
thought this house was abandoned,
you really don't need to see a ghost
to stare into the heart of fear,
just a house you supposedly thought you
"knew" was abandoned,
this grave of a house,
with a light shining inside of it;
and this, coming from a man,
is not so much a fear,
these are not exactly tears of fear -
rather, tears of lament...
the most hidden of man's fears:
namely - sadness,
and only melancholy can be the greatest
of man's fears...
that great prematurity of death,
within the living.
it really doesn't take a ghost,
but a "supposedly" abandoned house,
who you pass, from day to day,
to suddenly appear alive,
with a lightbulb appearing from its
gravestone lingering windows,
like almost a name, to conjure
memory, of that celebratory candle resting
on the gladden heart of turmoiled fate
bound to a hadean hush,
celebratory for all saints,
sinners, heretics and fiends alike;
you really can't even begin to conjure my
state of horror...
conjured, like a poison dart,
with me numbed,
walking further on,
as if nothing had actually happened...
people don't actually realise how much
horror works in the dimension of music
the music is obvious,
the delay effect of horror is, much, much
that's called horror: "subtitled"...
music is obvious in the genre's demand...
but the realisation of the true horror
is in the delay effect...
the "post-traumatism" effectuality -
given that being post-traumatic is not
that you've seen something horrible,
but that you've seen something horrible
you never imagined you could have done...
hence the the delay conceptualisation
of horror being inact...
p.t.s.d. is the delay conceptualisation
and much of the horror genre is
about music, as it is about delaying the initial
burden of apathy, or rather shock mixed
with a libido overload...
horror is nonetheless: music and delay...
the delay becomes what it already was -
a caseload of dreams;
music wise? just a bad taste in pop subsequently.