Frustrated is what I am
It's not who I am but it's definitely me at this very second.

Frustrated with this moment
It's not the moment I am in but it's definitely me in the distant past.

I am so done with this over all distinct dictation of how I should be within the realm of this happiness.

.....that didn't come out the way I wanted it too...

I am frustrated.

Frustrated is who I am because that's where I am.
It is me in this moment and it is me wanting more than maybe I deserve.

I'm not sure....I'm probably full of ******* on that last one.

Look....

I've been at this point for so long that I forget what it's like to work for something that makes me happy but I deserve to be happy, everyone does.

I've been missing out and I'm tired of it.

This whole thing makes no sense at all but what does?

Scratch the "but what does?"

This whole thing makes no sense.

I'm just so....what's the word....

Frustrated.