The blood is humming through my body, those irritating vibrations.
I want it to stop completely, the flow and everything that is breaking underneath.
I’m surrounded by heartbeats, the beautiful beating of hearts roaming and crying.
When the specific heartbeat I am searching for is far away from mine. Sometimes I moan sad and unthinkable thoughts like wanting to stop my heartbeat just to stop abruptly with no regrets afterward.
Having faith in the indifference that I have towards others and myself helps nothing and no one.
Everything ends in tears because people do not know how to control their **** emotions.
I’m completely scared and enticing for the bullet they will put in my head.
Sometimes I’m only concerned about the fact that they only want to look pretty and feel my heartbeat because everything else does not make sense to them.
Being reckless helps me in not wanting them to want me.