I see your picture Pop up on my dash Oh, I guess we're still friends At least in Cyberspace We are…
Anyway, I see your stupid ******* picture Unkempt beard Slimy trout in one hand Beer in the other
And it makes me absolutely sick Bile swirls around in my stomach Like blood down the drain Of those Hitchcock films we'd watch 'Til dawn At the foot of your bed Wrapped in a deep sea of sheets
You're wearing that necklace I bought you in Maui Little rocks strung together Black and white I was half way across the globe And you were still the only thing On my ****** up mind
I wonder if you think of me Every ******* time you take it off To shower I wonder if those ****** you **** Twist the stones around And inquire their origin
And, most of all, I wonder what you tell them.
I walk down your street Because I still have the same friends As you And we all grew up together In this black hole we've been taught to call Our hometown We rode the same bus, Smoked the same pipes, Blew the same lines, I guess, in a way, we were family.
Anyway, I walk down your stupid ****** up street And I saunter past your aluminum framed ******* That you still bother to call Your car
And the only thing that runs through my mind Are all those nights we spent together In your driveway Talking about absolutely nothing Meaningless ******* And at the time, it all seemed so ridiculously Pointless But now…
Those memories are what I cherish More than anything.
Your car is rotting away No brakes, no engine The windows don't even shut And it takes every ounce of willpower I have left Not to key the **** out of your Jetta Inscribe it with your true title *******
I wonder if you'd know it was me I wonder what people would ask you
And, most of all, I wonder what you'd tell them.
I gaze out my window For the billionth time Sighing at your silhouette In my decaying yard
Roses in hand, you patiently wait For the only girl you've ever broken To come downstairs You scream out my name Throw rocks at my window Like we're Sixteen again
I don't recall How many steps I raced down I don't recall If I bothered to lock the door behind me I don't recall Much of anything
******* Is all I can say ******* Is all I can think ******* Runs through my blood My brain My heart ******* ******* *******.
And before I know it My fists are at your throat My nails are at your skin My knuckles are at your jaw I thrash Eyes shut Nothing but eternal darkness And violence
I'm screaming I can't stop You're on the ground Thorns at your side Tears in your ducts
*******
I kick your skeleton Smothered in skin
******* for shooting up ******* for destroying me *******
I study the needle And the damage done Your gushing blood Starlit crimson
For the first time, I see your wounds
I wonder how it feels For you to be the victim I wonder what your ****** Your sister Your mother Will say